Feeling Sick

That is me today. I went to bed with a headache and some weirdo thing happening to my eyes.. they hurt and when I closed my eyes a flash of light would come out and feel like my eyes are doing a dance. Very strange.

Then I felt dizzy and the headache continues, so I got up when Jamie did to have a panadol, but I took my evening tablets (1200mg of Gabapentin) at 5.30am. VERY VERY wrong. I've been in a total fog today. Took the panadol later as well. Did my stupid pregnancy test like I do every month, and the damn thing says no.

I have NO energy. The idea of stacking the dishwasher makes me want to have a snooze.

My main problem of late is dysphasia or word association. I get twisted and tangled, the wrong word comes out all the time. Last night I wanted to tell Jamie a story, I got stuck on one word and could not continue.. I got so frustrated I had to take myself out of the room and come back once I'd settled down. This has been happening for about a year now, and it stresses me out no end. Tried to get into my doctor, but she is all booked out (again), will try again tomorrow.

Underbelly 2: Tale of Two Cities

I'm not getting into this Underbelly nearly as much as the last one. The villains were more likable in the first one, the sex was a part of the story, not just to show some boobs.

Following the first one was easy, I remember when Jason Moran was shot, I remember when the bloke in Chadstone was shot. Carl Williams got shot near my supermarket in Gladstone Park. Maybe that is what attracted me so much to the first one, the familiarity of it all.

I have heard of *Aussie Bob* Trimbole and Donald McKay. But maybe because it was from before my time, so far it is set in the 70's, it just feels old. I bet the family of Donald McKay it sure isn't old... opening old wounds maybe.

Matthew Newton is playing a bloody good part. For some reason, I just find him adorable, I loved him when he did comedy with David Campbell, loved him on Thank God You're Here, and I even liked that show *Stupid Stupid Man*

My problem is I'm just not getting enough background information about the story. But I'll stick it out, it will get better.

As Jamie mentioned watching it last night, gee it would have been easy to be a drug courier in the 70s. No xray scanners, no drug swabs, not as many customs/security people. Just have to watch out for a guilty conscience, and amazingly these people do not. As *Kiwi Terry* has said many times so far in Underbelly "Its not like anyone gets hurt"

The Biggest Loser

I just love it. I love that I can hate people I've never met who are trying to lose weight. Not because they are bad people, but because a tv show edits itself to have villains. I love the couple format rather than red and blue teams. They all seem genuinely nice people. Not sure of my take for who's gonna win.

Decisions

I need help.

We need a holiday this year. I just don't know where I want to go. I'd like to go somewhere different.
First thoughts are:

1. South America... but where in South America, it is such a big continent. The language difference is quite scary for me. Getting there would be expensive but cheap once we got there.

2. Mexico... the language is still a problem, more beachy and quite hot. I'd imagine this would be a fairly cheap holiday as well.

3. America... I'd love to see the places I see on tv, Grand Canyon, Las Vegas, New York and just doing a road trip. This one will be exy

4. Thailand... to be honest, it does not appeal at all.

5. Fiji... civil unrest.

6. Samoa... someone mentioned this the other day... .hmm might have to do some research.

7. Europe... well we've both been there, but its been 9 or 10 years and we haven't done it together

8. Hawaii... hmmm just not sure, can get pretty much the same holiday in Bali. I would really like to see an aircraft carrier though.

9. Canada... could see the rellies.

10. Ireland... I think it would be beautiful and I'd really like to go, might have trouble convicning Jamie though. For some reason I think Ireland has the same appeal as New Zealand.

11. Tasmania... boringly close but I really want to go back and get some good memories, the last time I was there was one of the worst periods of my life - I became a victim - and I want to change my memories.

12. New Zealand... again I want to rewrite my memories and travel there with Jamie

13. China/other asian countries.. once again, Asia just does not appeal to me.

So anyone want to give me their thoughts? I'm totally open to suggestions, so far the front runner in our mind is somewhere in South America. Argentina, Peru and a bit of central America ie Panama (Jamie wants to see the Prison Break prison... yes our life is totally shaped by tv)